Mabon Potluck & Divination Fest

~*Mabon*~

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Our Cauldron of the Valley community celebrated Mabon with a potluck and divination fest on Wednesday the 21st. We had pretty good turn out with lots of yummy food and company. We brought Jack and another woman ended up bringing her female pit bull. Her and Jack had a blast playing together. We brought some tarot cards but neither of us are very confident at doing readings. I was lucky enough to have a reading done by a woman I hadn't met before. It was an awesome reading. It was a general reading saying that I was coming to a point of stillness after a lot of mental activity [I had like 5 or 6 sword cards] She stated I was at a point of balance. I am struggling with what to take from my grandma in regards to her business and what I need to change. There was mention I was worried about security and money but my future card said we'd have a large windfall of money or the opportunity to make a lot of money. There was also a card regarding marriage/union. Others see me as a strong person who has accomplished a lot because of my mental abilities. My secret wishes/fear was being a strong, independent woman who may offend and put people off. The outcome was The World, she said I have great things ahead of me and will make my mark on the world.

The cards I remember are 1 [Me] 4 of swords; my cross card 7 swords; the card above me [my subconscious/higher mind] was the 4 pentacles; the card below me was regarding marriage/union. The card how others see me was the King of Swords; My secret wishes/fears card was the Queen of Swords; The outcome card was the World.

I wish I would have written them all down and what she said. I got a really good feeling from the reading and it was very positive. I'd like to do more magick in deciding what career I should have. I'm still torn on that issue. I'm good at bookkeeping/accounting but it is far from my passion.

Wish List

• Cloth File Boxes
• Fire-Safe File Box
• Bath Mat
• Fluffy Bath Rugs
• Wood Cutting Board
• Chants CD's
• Plants for Fairy Garden [Irish Moss etc.]
• Salt & Pepper Grinders
• Pillows

Hestia & The Daughters of the Fire

Hestia Goddess Pendant

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Last Wednesday the 14th our circle did a dedication ritual to Hestia and found our coven name, Daughters of the Fire. We've started a yahoo group and are now a dedicated coven. I found a pendant for us which is pictures above. We just have to wait for the on-line store get more in stock before we order them. Our dedication ritual was amazing. The entire experience is so affirming that I am on the right path. I am so happy [despite recent events] at where I am at in my life. I have a partner I love dearly, I am part of a local pagan community which we are creating familial bonds with, and we are now part of a real coven. I am so exited for the work we will be doing, it just feels so much more powerful and real now that we're dedicated. Magick is what is keeping me going.

My Life is Crazy

I know I haven't updated but my life has been crazy. Last week on Sept. 7th an old fucker hit my parked car and tore the bumper off. I don't even know if I want to explain how it happened. See the illustration above. The next morning on the 8th I got a flat tire going to work. These events and my depression regarding Ah-nolds promised veto of the marriage bill and the events following Hurricane Katrina had put me in an ugly place. It just seemed like so much happening all at once. Thursday night we went to our Ritual Planning Meeting and were able to vent during check in and received much needed empathy and hugs. We then helped in planning our Samhain ritual which helped to cheer us up a bit. This last week has been better but I'm not completely out of my funk yet. I say yet because un-like my depressing and dark teenage years I know this will pass.

Future Non~Gender~Specific Spouse

AB 849

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The California legislature passed AB 849 which would allow same-sex marriage in California. When I had originally started this post earlier today Arnold hadn't taken a stance on the bill. I had a glimmer of hope he would sign it or allow it to go in affect with out his signature. He announced tonight he was planning to veto the bill because the voters that he so loves, already voted against gay marriage. Fuck the voters, fuck them all. When has this country ever granted rights to a minority by majority vote? NEVER. If I am wrong correct me please, leave me a comment or send me an email. When gay marriage was approved by the courts in Massachusetts they said it should have been done through the legislature, now that it was passed through the legislature in California we're told it should be decided by the voters or the courts. I am so angry. I had been willing to forgive Arnold for everything if he had passed this bill, but now I will hate him until the day he dies. Especially now that we are seriously talking about having children, they deserve to be born into a fully protected family. Not some half-assed protections that they tell us are as good as marriage. Separate and unequal, how many god damned times do we have to go over that in this country. I am so ready to pack up and move somewhere we can get married and have our pit bull. Yeah the legislature also passed SB 861 the Breed Specific Legislation disguised as a spay/neuter bill. Arnold will probably sign that one, fucker.

Katrina

I still can't believe the events that have occurred since Hurricane Katrina. I have been avoiding writing about it because it's just so overwhelming. I can't imagine how horrible it would be to finally be rescued and then be forced to leave your pets behind. We would be those crazy people sitting on our roof with our dog and cats because there is no way in hell I'd ever leave them behind. Call me crazy... I am also one of those people that swerve for animals in the road; hardly logical but I'm proud of it.

Thoughts of Babies

~*A Baby*~

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Cindi and I have been talking more seriously about planning for a baby. It's something we knew we wanted in the future but never explored it more than that. Since we aren't a straight couple there's no chance of an accidental pregnancy; this is something we have to plan for in every sense of the word. We'd like a friend of ours do donate his sperm and to have some involvement, but we want to be the legal parents of our baby. So far we've talked about cutting down our debt in anticipation and saving money for the deposit for a new place we will need to find for next year. We are hoping we'll be able to rent a house. Our lease for our current one bedroom apartment ends August 2006. [We had to decide if we were staying in March.] Last night I couldn't sleep thoughts were running through my head. I am exited but nervous as well.